My life is just going haywire. I started college, and that is the only good thing. I am an atheist with a very religious family. My parents worry so much that they do not let me move out. when i thought i could find comfort with my friends, they did not bother, they had their own issues, and my issues seem like a joke to them. The girl i like, thinks i am a fool and i know it is not going anywhere. I can’t think straight. This pressure in my home, pushed to the border of hatred towards my parents whom are the reason i am here. I have no outlet of all these pressure. I failed to get a scholarship causing my dad to fund my studies, and blaming me for him spending his money. i feel like i am a burden, to everybody. I have voice yet nobody gives time to hear it. And here i am , thinking of suicide. Writing my thoughts. i do not know what to do.
You are not a burden to anyone. You feel as though you are a burden to yourself deep down and that is the cause to it all. But suicide? No, I know you are so much stronger and better than that. Because what if tomorrow, things get better? And you will be gone, and never notice. The beautiful things in life are in the small things. Life is all about the little things like laughing until your stomach hurts, writing a letter to a friend, making love all night with someone you really care about. And you are still figuring out who to be. Life does go on, and the hard times do not last. Good luck, have hope .xx